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Pettume ootustes sageli vaid seetõttu, et ootame pettumust.

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Selline tark mõttetera on mul seina peal. Märkasin seda eile. See paber on olnud seal pikalt, kuid alles eile mõtlesin selle peale. Nojah, samuti pani mõtlema ju ka see film, mida ma nägin hiljuti..aga nüüd see..

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Try and fail, but don't fail to try.

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Minu tänane orkuti nö õnnelause. Viimasel ajal tekivad sinna eriti veidrad laused.. Nagu, et sa oled see, kelleks sa end mõtled ( ära arva, et oled superkangelane ja lennata oskad). Jällegi õigus ju..Kuid miks ma siis ei suuda oma mõtlemist niimoodi kontrollida? Miks ei suuda mina positiivseid asju esiplaanile tõsta, kas negatiivne kaalub siis tõesti head asjad üles? Ei tea... Olen vist liiga palju olnud olukordades, kus lootes ja uskudes ikka kõik aia taha läheb. Ja vahest...kui ei mõtle, ei looda, ei usu, ei küsi küsimusi- laabub kõik. Kus on loogika?

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I'm waiting for my moment to come
I’m waiting for the movie to begin
I'm waiting for a revelation
I'm waiting for someone to count me in
‘Cause now I only see my dreams
In everthing I touch, feel the cold hands on
Everything that I love
Cold like some, magnificant skyline
Out of my reach but always in my eyeline now

We’re tumbling down
We’re spiralling
Tied up to the ground
We’re spiralling

I fashioned you from jewels and stone
I made you in the image of myself
I gave you everything you wanted
So you would never know anything else

But everytime I reach for you
You slip through my fingers
Into cold sunlight laughing at the things
That I have planned
The map of my world gets smaller as I sit here
Pulling at the loose threads now

Did you wanna be a winner?
Did you wanna be an icon?
Did you wanna be famous?
Did you wanna be the president?
Did you wanna start a war?
Did you wanna have a family?
Did you wanna be in love?
Did you wanna be in love?

When we fall in love
We’re just falling
In love with ourselves
We’re spiralling